Since having Alice, I’ve been comparing her to Tom.
I don’t think it’s a bad thing, but it’s just that when I had Tom — that’s how I thought labor and delivery was.
That’s how I thought my recovery from labor and delivery was.
That’s how I thought infants were.
That’s how I thought I learned the best way to feed a baby was.
That’s how I learned to be the kind of mother I was.
When you have that one child — that’s all you have to go on.
So…I totally knew what to expect with Alice.
Except I didn’t.
Even though people tell you that children are different, you don’t really believe them.
I mean, how different can they be?
In my case?
Labor and delivery?
With Tom I was sent to the hospital to be induced, so I had plenty of time to come home, pack my bags, wait for SIX HOURS for Kev to come home, call everyone, get everything ready and shed a few tears about leaving my dog.
Everyone was at the hospital when I had Tom the next afternoon.
It was pretty rad.
With Alice I started having contractions at home. I thought they were mild. Then they weren’t mild and OHMYGOD by the time I got to the hospital they were 2 minutes apart, I felt like I was going to die and 2 hours later I had her.
We were by ourselves at the hospital.
I barely had time to call my parents to even let them know I was in the hospital.
It was a painful kind of rad.
With Tom, my recovery took forever and kinda…sucked.
With Alice, it has been easy breezy and totally awesome.
Feeding an infant?
Tom wouldn’t breastfeed and I had a terrible time trying to pump milk for him and I didn’t sleep at all and it wasn’t fun.
Alice breastfed immediately.
Tom was very active and energetic from the first moments.
That’s a nice mom way of saying: HE WOULDN’T SLEEP and HE CRIED A LOT!
She only cries when she has to do something distasteful — like pooing.
(This is not to say I’m not still totally exhausted. Oh newborns! She’s so cute, though!!)
I mean — nothing about them is similar.
I *thought* I knew what I was getting myself into — but I didn’t.
What I didn’t know, was that I absolutely would love discovering how different my sweet babies are.
I love how unique they are from each other.
I love that I can already see bits of Alice’s little personality so soon.
And I love that seeing how Alice is, only shines a brighter light on how hilariously crazy Tom is.
And I love…
I love seeing my babies together.
I love seeing Kevin holding our little baby.
I love being Tom and Alice’s mom.
I feel very lucky.
And very happy.
And overwhelmingly crazy in love with my little family.