Let’s ALL Cry.

I can’t do a Bits post today because I didn’t take any photos this weekend.

None.

Why?

Well, in between Tom crying, Alice crying and me crying — I simply didn’t think to capture the moments.

The past three days have made me feel like I am totally failing.

Tom is acting insane.

Alice seems like she wants to eat non-stop.

Yesterday, I just wanted to totally give up.

Like…I wanted to run away.

To a beach.

By myself.

For a month.

I sound ungrateful, right?

I know.

If I went to a beach by myself, I’d miss my babies and hub after about 2 hours.

(Maybe three.)

But seriously, I would totally miss them and would come running back.

But yesterday, that’s how I felt.

I felt like I just couldn’t do it.

I felt like I couldn’t take Tom’s constant whining/crying/non-napping.

I felt like I couldn’t take Alice’s constant need to eat/crying/non-napping.

I felt like I couldn’t take my constant feeling of failure/crying/non-napping.

We’re *all* tired.

We’re *all* cranky.

Yesterday was the day that my euphoria of having the sweetest baby and the most wonderful toddler and a happy life in general just totally…

Wore. Off.

And I was done.

So I had a good, girly cry.

I took my sweet (crying) baby to my sweet (wonderful) husband and said, “I need you to take her for awhile.”

And I went downstairs and showered the spit-up and the tears off.

I took a deep breath.

And I remembered that these crazy moments are super short-lived.

And I remembered that all the good things my kiddos do far outweighs the bad.

And I remembered that I am incredibly lucky.

And I’m not just saying that…I really *know* these things to be true.

Plus?

My sister posted this photo on Facebook of Tom from the weekend:

And if seeing *that* doesn’t make you mush and gush…I don’t know what will!

So there you have it, crazy babies.

You can keep acting nuts.

I will keep acting nuts with you.

LOVE!

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4 Responses to Let’s ALL Cry.

  1. Kristina says:

    You are doing wonderful! I know exactly how you feel because I have had many and many and many of those moments since Crosby came! It is truly hard to do what we do and we need to remember to take our breaks and try not to be as hard on ourselves as we are! You are wonderful and are doing great! It will get better each day! Love you! Hugs!!!!!!!

  2. redkeeney says:

    I’m sorry it was a rough weekend! I was going to ask you Friday if I could come over Saturday, but decided that was too short notice. I don’t know if I would have helped or made things worse… if it would have helped, I’d have cried too. Hope today is better.

    Oh, and why didn’t you take pictures because you are such a pretty crier!

  3. Really makes my decision about having kids a lot easier……..ha not! We go back and forth all the time about kids, we just can’t decide!

  4. waymel says:

    You don’t sound ungrateful. You sound NORMAL. I wish I could come over and help you or cook you dinner or something. Just know that you are perfectly normal and that it will get better. Just hang in there, one moment at a time. It’s totally ok to let Tom watch more tv than usual while you just sit on the couch in a sleepy stupor. It really is. And it will get easier. You’ll make it. HUGS!!!

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